The last 2 days was craps... Not being able to talk to you, not being able to see you... Why did you draw me so close then shut the door at my face again... Or is it I'm just assumed that it was opened. sigh... My heart hurts... I thought I could keep you by my side, but I guess that wouldn't work... You are like a bird that needs its freedom and space to fly, the sky is your limit, and somehow I know you are not going to let anything or anyone be your limit. I see now, maybe too late to see it... but I see now that we are indeed two very opposite people, two people from completely different worlds. Maybe that was what attracted me to you in the first place. Because you are so special, unique, I walked closer and got drawn into your world. I got addicted to staying there, curious to know more... But but I need to get back, hoping to shuttle between the two freely, but when I find that it is not always open, my mood became like the weather; cloudy and rainy. I wished that our worlds can merge and I am ready to abandon my own world just to be in yours, but I don't know if you allow me to... You never speak your mind freely...

I'm in deep trouble... I thought i could sleep it away but when I woke up, it is still there... I miss you... but i dun know if you miss me too... I don't want to assume anymore, just tell me directly... I wanted to tell you how I feel but I'm afraid, afraid that I hid myself. I am afraid you tell me that i assumed too much.

I wanted you to tell me I believe in you, but I know you wouldn't say things that you do not mean.

I'm wounded by my own assumptions... badly wounded... fading away... where is the light? the hand to pull me up?

Just a phone call will lighten me up...