I got one more paper to go and i can't wait to finish my exams. But i got no motivation to study.

Done with the Business Finance paper. I think completing the paper was a brisk... I raced against time towards the end... I've done my best and I can expect at least a Distinction, but one thing I really feel anguished about was I forgot to cancel the 1st question which I wanted to skip, I attempted it but felt that it's too complicated and selected another 3 question behind but i forgot to cancel the first question!!!
I pray and hope that the marker will be kind enough to cancel my first question and mark the other 3...

Hai... I'm quite hesitant to write this here, but I need to get it off my heart...
Often we hear of this saying that when you love someone, you are still able to forgive and accept him/her again even though the one you love did something that caused you some emotional hurt.
Although it happened some time ago, a few misunderstanding(I admit it was my fault for most of it), for a while we drifted apart, it seemed like the end of a good friendship. I felt hurt by her response towards the misunderstanding during the cool-off period. But after relatively long period, the friendship got better. Although she concluded that it is impossible between the two of us, and I thought that after feeling "crushed", I would have given up all hope... But deep down, I still have feelings for her. Observing her response, still makes me unsure of the possibility. She is a friend I do not wish to risk losing. I've not found another girl who has moved my heart.
Tell me you do not feel anything for me and we can move on in our friendship...
*Quite Emo huh... haha... but I'm managing well... =P*

I gotta find more time to blog...
I feel so tired today even though it is only 1.30am.
I feel great after the PM with Pastor Kong.
Seriously its easy to slacken but it take countless time the effort to regain where you used to be.
I have been thinking for a very long time, why do I want to be a CGL or a person in leadership?
I don't think it is ever for the recognition. It is always for changing lives, but i kept asking myself, why should I make sacrifices just so that I can become a leader to change lives. I can always focus on other things, enjoy having more time to myself. I asked not once, not twice but so many times that i lost count.
I just felt this word go through my mind today.
"It is only in prominence that you can effectively touch lives."

A leader in whatever areas of society is able to impact lives, in a position that people can see you.
President Obama, because of his position, he can make things change to touch lives.
A boss of a pub has employees under her, she is touching lives from that position of prominence.

Another thing on my mind was about how I sense perspective of me.
I take it that I am being "S" here. But sometimes, it seemed very obvious that people doubt my ability. The look and reaction... (It can be very frustrating) But I am not going to be bothered anymore... Not going to be bothered anymore, I am confident of my working abilities, I know my own capabilities. I am born for greatness.. We are all born to achieve greatness. Even if some people do not believe in you. At least God does and I am sure someone out there does.

In a few hours, it will be the final test before the exams... I pray that I get a HD for this test...
I shall continue later...

I feel so guilty, I didn't know about my good friend's dad passing on. And I only found out after the whole wake was over!!!
Throughout this whole period, I didn't ask about her dad's condition because she didn't want to talk about it, and I didn't want to cause her to feel even more grieved. I truly wanted to be a friend who will stand by her...

If you are reading this, I'm sorry fen.. =)