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Hi. I'm Lester. I was named by my parents after a singer/actor, Mark Lester. I was supposed to be named mark but my mum's friend decided to name her son that.
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Sunday, July 27, 2008 @ 12:44 AM
I AM PROVOKED!!!!!!
JUST BECAUSE I WANTED TO BORROW THE CAR TO VISIT MY GRANDMOTHER, AND THEN GO TO TOWN TO DO MY PROJECT, AND TO HOUGANG FOR SOCCER. MY DAD MUST MAKE SO MUCH NOISE. He is unhappy with me because he thinks that I am not showing interest in my studies. TO ME, IF I AM NOT INTERESTED, THEN FOR WHAT PURPOSE DO I WANT TO APPLY FOR THIS COURSE. FOR WHAT REASON DO I WANT TO WASTE TIME STUDYING!!!! WHY MUST PEOPLE BELIEVE ONLY WHAT THEY SEE!!! CAN'T THEY HAVE A LITTLE FAITH!!! DISAPPOINTED AND PROVOKED!!! I WILL AND MUST EXCEL in my entire course of study, and excel in everything i am doing in life.
JUST BECAUSE I WANTED TO BORROW THE CAR TO VISIT MY GRANDMOTHER, AND THEN GO TO TOWN TO DO MY PROJECT, AND TO HOUGANG FOR SOCCER. MY DAD MUST MAKE SO MUCH NOISE. He is unhappy with me because he thinks that I am not showing interest in my studies. TO ME, IF I AM NOT INTERESTED, THEN FOR WHAT PURPOSE DO I WANT TO APPLY FOR THIS COURSE. FOR WHAT REASON DO I WANT TO WASTE TIME STUDYING!!!! WHY MUST PEOPLE BELIEVE ONLY WHAT THEY SEE!!! CAN'T THEY HAVE A LITTLE FAITH!!! DISAPPOINTED AND PROVOKED!!! I WILL AND MUST EXCEL in my entire course of study, and excel in everything i am doing in life.
Thursday, July 24, 2008 @ 11:00 PM
"一切完美"... It is an inspiring show... I'm supposed to be rushing my 2nd last SOT assignment, "The foundations of our Faith" but just feel so inspired by the show. There is an traditional saying that love needs fate to cultivate. Fate is coincidences always appearing. I believe that God will not put the person of your dreams in front of you but God can put opportunities in front of you. Coincidences happen when you pray!
Wednesday, July 16, 2008 @ 7:05 PM
My results of the personality test...
All Idealists (NFs) share the following core characteristics:
- Idealists pride themselves on being loving, kindhearted, and authentic.
- Idealists are enthusiastic, they trust their intuition, yearn for romance, seek their
true self, prize meaningful relationships, and dream of attaining wisdom. - Idealists tend to be giving, trusting, spiritual, and they are focused on personal
journeys and human potentials. - Idealists make intense mates, nurturing parents, and inspirational leaders.
Idealists, as a temperament, are passionately concerned with personal growth and development. Idealists strive to discover who they are and how they can become their best possible self -- always this quest for self-knowledge and self-improvement drives their imagination. And they want to help others make the journey. Idealists are naturally drawn to working with people, and whether in education or counseling, in social services or personnel work, in journalism or the ministry, they are gifted at helping others find their way in life, often inspiring them to grow as individuals and to fulfill their potentials.Idealists are sure that friendly cooperation is the best way for people to achieve their goals. Conflict and confrontation upset them because they seem to put up angry barriers between people. Idealists dream of creating harmonious, even caring personal relations, and they have a unique talent for helping people get along with each other and work together for the good of all. Such interpersonal harmony might be a romantic ideal, but then Idealists are incurable romantics who prefer to focus on what might be, rather than what is. The real, practical world is only a starting place for Idealists; they believe that life is filled with possibilities waiting to be realized, rich with meanings calling out to be understood. This idea of a mystical or spiritual dimension to life, the "not visible" or the "not yet" that can only be known through intuition or by a leap of faith, is far more important to Idealists than the world of material things.
Highly ethical in their actions, Idealists hold themselves to a strict standard of personal integrity. They must be true to themselves and to others, and they can be quite hard on themselves when they are dishonest, or when they are false or insincere. More often, however, Idealists are the very soul of kindness. Particularly in their personal relationships, Idealists are without question filled with love and good will. They believe in giving of themselves to help others; they cherish a few warm, sensitive friendships; they strive for a special rapport with their children; and in marriage they wish to find a "soulmate," someone with whom they can bond emotionally and spiritually, sharing their deepest feelings and their complex inner worlds.
Idealists are relatively rare, making up no more than 15 to 20 percent of the population. But their ability to inspire people with their enthusiasm and their idealism has given them influence far beyond their numbers.
Monday, July 14, 2008 @ 12:39 AM
During service on Saturday, I wrote down 3 goals.
1) I want to be able to move more mightily in the Spirit, more sensitive to the Holy Spirit in my life.
2) I want to score an average of Distinctions for my modules each semester in SIM.
3) I want to find the ideal girl of my dreams, i want to get attached by the end of 2008.
I believe that when we pray earnestly, God will answer if it is according to His will.
1) I want to be able to move more mightily in the Spirit, more sensitive to the Holy Spirit in my life.
2) I want to score an average of Distinctions for my modules each semester in SIM.
3) I want to find the ideal girl of my dreams, i want to get attached by the end of 2008.
I believe that when we pray earnestly, God will answer if it is according to His will.
@ 12:15 AM
At close to 12am, walking home on Friday after Cg, I was walking alone, praying in tongues at the same time. I just thought about moving in the Spirit, in SOT, we had opportunities to move in the gift of the Holy Spirit. But after that period, i began to wonder how can we exercise in the Gifts. We all know that we got to keep exercising in the gift to stay sharp when we move the gifts.
Thus I just asked God for a interpretation of tongues.
This was the interpretation...
God said: "Lester, as you desire to serve, wanting to impact lives, when you move I will move, when you lay hands on people, trust that my power will flow through your hands."
At first I was unsure, cos didn't the bible say that only when God moves then we move. So how is it when i move, then God moves.
But nevertheless, i confessed those words verbally.
Then on Saturday service, Pastor Kong was sharing about one of Pastor Alex Abraham's encounters with Jesus, where Jesus asked him where is His address, and pastor Alex replied that Jesus' address is at the right hand of the Father.
But Jesus answered him saying it is wrong, my address is in your heart. So when you move, I will move, when you lay hands on people for an impartation, my power will flow through your hands.
When Pastor shared that I remembered the tongues that I interpreted the day before, I was like
"WOW!!! the interpretation was really from God. Really dumbfounded. God is so real, so awesome!!!
Thus I just asked God for a interpretation of tongues.
This was the interpretation...
God said: "Lester, as you desire to serve, wanting to impact lives, when you move I will move, when you lay hands on people, trust that my power will flow through your hands."
At first I was unsure, cos didn't the bible say that only when God moves then we move. So how is it when i move, then God moves.
But nevertheless, i confessed those words verbally.
Then on Saturday service, Pastor Kong was sharing about one of Pastor Alex Abraham's encounters with Jesus, where Jesus asked him where is His address, and pastor Alex replied that Jesus' address is at the right hand of the Father.
But Jesus answered him saying it is wrong, my address is in your heart. So when you move, I will move, when you lay hands on people for an impartation, my power will flow through your hands.
When Pastor shared that I remembered the tongues that I interpreted the day before, I was like
"WOW!!! the interpretation was really from God. Really dumbfounded. God is so real, so awesome!!!
Sunday, July 6, 2008 @ 10:07 PM
I took cg on Friday again. I had expectations on how I want to meeting to be. But I ended the meeting feeling disappointed...
I expected the presence of God to be so tangible when we worship... but the Presence was there but it wasn't as dynamic as I expect it to be.
I preached expecting people to be inspired, but I didn't preach as well as i expected.
When I ministered to those who responded, i expected an impartation to fall upon them, although I could see that they were touched, but the impartation did not fall upon them.
I felt like I've just returned from a defeated battle. Thought about whether I am good enough to be a cgl began to arise. That night I just shared with xueying and went to sleep, thinking that this disappointment will disappear on its own.
The next morning i woke up, the feeling of disappointment was still there. I decided to do my quiet time in the morning. At first I tried to worship with the guitar, but somehow i just got even more discouraged. I just felt the Holy Spirit saying that i should put down my guitar, turn on a song, and just worship. The presence of God came, I practiced what we learnt in SOT last week, I prayed for myself to release all the disappointments, grief, discouragements. I laid hand on myself and after that i just laid on the chair enjoying the presence. I feel released. God gave me a word, He said
"Worship to Me, is not about singing the perfect tune, but worship is from your heart, when you preach it is not about how well you speak, but you speak through your spirit. So what if you cannot sing well, speak eloquently. But let your walk with Me, your sensitivity to the moving of the Holy Spirit be your strength. "
I'm really encouraged by these words. I am reminded that serving God is not about our own talents and abilities but trusting Him to lead.
Then this weekend service with Pastor Mike, he shared about dealing with disappointments. One point I remember the most is,
"When you have your own expectation on what God should do, you will be disappointed."
I expected the presence of God to be so tangible when we worship... but the Presence was there but it wasn't as dynamic as I expect it to be.
I preached expecting people to be inspired, but I didn't preach as well as i expected.
When I ministered to those who responded, i expected an impartation to fall upon them, although I could see that they were touched, but the impartation did not fall upon them.
I felt like I've just returned from a defeated battle. Thought about whether I am good enough to be a cgl began to arise. That night I just shared with xueying and went to sleep, thinking that this disappointment will disappear on its own.
The next morning i woke up, the feeling of disappointment was still there. I decided to do my quiet time in the morning. At first I tried to worship with the guitar, but somehow i just got even more discouraged. I just felt the Holy Spirit saying that i should put down my guitar, turn on a song, and just worship. The presence of God came, I practiced what we learnt in SOT last week, I prayed for myself to release all the disappointments, grief, discouragements. I laid hand on myself and after that i just laid on the chair enjoying the presence. I feel released. God gave me a word, He said
"Worship to Me, is not about singing the perfect tune, but worship is from your heart, when you preach it is not about how well you speak, but you speak through your spirit. So what if you cannot sing well, speak eloquently. But let your walk with Me, your sensitivity to the moving of the Holy Spirit be your strength. "
I'm really encouraged by these words. I am reminded that serving God is not about our own talents and abilities but trusting Him to lead.
Then this weekend service with Pastor Mike, he shared about dealing with disappointments. One point I remember the most is,
"When you have your own expectation on what God should do, you will be disappointed."
@ 9:31 PM
Just to update everyone about the current status between us. Well, there isn't much progress. I've let my mind take over my emotions, and am being open. I still say hi to her, maybe casually chat a little, but i never purposely go over to say hi, or purposely look for her to have a conversation.
Talking to some older friends, i began to feel that there are some criteria that i can compromise but i think these 3 criteria are the basic qualities that I will look for.
1. She has to be someone who has a certain level of wisdom, who is able to always give me second opinions, challenge me positively.
2. Someone whom i can pour out my heart to and understand what I'm saying.
3. Has a good fashion sense, know how to dress up.
It is 2/3 inward, and 1/3 outward.
I feel encouraged by the advice you all wrote down. Like what Josephine said, I believe that we will not know what God has in stored as we put Him first.
I believe that i can find a girl that fits all three criteria, not just the inward, but also the outward.
Talking to some older friends, i began to feel that there are some criteria that i can compromise but i think these 3 criteria are the basic qualities that I will look for.
1. She has to be someone who has a certain level of wisdom, who is able to always give me second opinions, challenge me positively.
2. Someone whom i can pour out my heart to and understand what I'm saying.
3. Has a good fashion sense, know how to dress up.
It is 2/3 inward, and 1/3 outward.
I feel encouraged by the advice you all wrote down. Like what Josephine said, I believe that we will not know what God has in stored as we put Him first.
I believe that i can find a girl that fits all three criteria, not just the inward, but also the outward.