My MSN Messenger nick says: "Set free".
I spoke to this friend, actually we were in a relationship before, that was many many years ago, i think it was about 7 years ago. She left church because of me. Since that time, I never got attached. Although my reason was because I choose to fulfill my singlehood vow, and i felt that i was still not ready. But i guess deep down inside, i felt bad for breaking her heart. It took her about 5 years before she talked to me again. It was only when I told her the main reason why I broke up with her, and I affirm that i did have feelings for her at that time, and she is not the only one who felt hurt from the relationship, but I too was hurt and guilty for breaking her heart. That was when she forgave me fully. But I never asked her directly for forgiveness. So all along it was something that was unresolved in my heart, which is to ask her verbally for forgiveness, and her blessing over my future relationship. (I sound funny here, haha). Anyway I finally had the chance to ask her a few days ago. Praise God that she has fully forgiven me. I think all girls will agree that it takes a girl a long time to fully forgive and forget something wrong that you have done against them. Girls forgive in installment... They can forgive you but will take a long time to forget. Well, i learned it the hard way a few times. So never repeat this mistake. That is why my nick is "set free"

Here is the post about my mission trip to Batam... To me it was quite a fruitful trip, i was involved in the drama. This drama is about this girl who is separated from God because of her boyfriend, money, materialism, habit of the world. But how Jesus in the end came and saved her from all these cares of the world. Personally, i felt that we did well, we brought the message of the drama across to the congregation.
Here are some photos...




Here is a clip of my role in the drama...



Our Dinner/Supper... The time now is about 2300hrs (Indo Time), 12am (Singapore Time)




The mission team...
The Drama Crew...

Hi all, I just got back from my mission trip to Batam... Will update soon... This week got to rush sermon for preaching test... =)

Today, another surprise happened...
We are all involved in a drama for our mission trip this weekend. There was supposed to be a rehearsal today, but there was no new about it. I called her to ask if she knew anything about the rehearsal, but she didn't receive any news, I told her I will call the team leader to find out. Thus, i called the team leader for this mission trip, and she told me there isn't any rehearsal today. So i called Jocelyn just to update her about the rehearsal and that's it. She later messaged me saying : "Thanks for informing me about the good new. :)"
I was surprised by this message.
I shall take it as she is being polite...
Oh well, FOCUS...

I've issued the ultimatum. Daniel confirmed what I've been contemplating. I went to SOT because i want to be equipped. She has given me the impression that I am not welcome to be around her group of friends. It happened on two occasions. I will remain as acquaintance with her. Like i mentioned in the 1st post, when the sign happens, then praise the Lord. Otherwise, I'll just trust God's goodness and move on....

I went to watch Chronicles of Narnia yesterday with the gang. I asked Jocelyn along, but she already has plans to watch it with her friends the same day. The initial plan is to watch at marina, but when i checked the seats were limited, thus i booked tickets for Vivocity. She watched at marina. I offered to give her a lift home, cos i'll be sending joanne, peiyun home. Thank God they stayed in Hougang. It gives me an excuse to send her home. The show ended at close to 3am. I gave her a call, asked if she needed a lift home, BUT her phone went flat!!!!
What a coincidence... I left her a text and an audio message to wait at the esplanade taxi stand for me. Well, she wasn't there when we got there, but we waited for awhile before leaving. I later sent her another message while sending the rest home. She replied that her phone went dead while talking to me just now, and decided to take a cab with her friend.
And then...
After dropping Joanne off, i received a message from her, She said "she has reached home."
I was quite surprised that she would message me that she reached home already.
Right now i'd better go sleep, ITS SOT with Pastor Kong tmr...

I am crying out now...
"HOW, HOW Can i know what she thinks and feel... I'm at wits end.
I don't know how she feels about this relationship. I feel it isn't the time to confess my emotions to her. On tuesday, during leaders meeting, i felt God saying this: "sacrifice", He reminded me of how God told Abraham to offer Issac up as a sacrifice to him. Abraham loved Issac so much but choose to be obedient.
I struggled with that thought very a few days. I've not share this with anyone, except mentioned briefly to Jiayi. I asked, am i supposed to sacrifice the entire relationship? I reasoned, but she has appeared to me so close to what i am looking for, and now I got to give it up??? Today, I shall end my pursuit. If God want to revive this relationship, let her start making progress by pressing into my life as well, be it in the form of messaging or call.
God, please take over, i surrender this relationship to you... The Word says, there is a time and season for everything."